Bad Habits Die Hard

I don't know why but I am far more active and awake at night. This is illogical considering how much I like sleep. I always feel clearer when the sun's down. I want to walk, drive, play with the dog (who is by then usually fast asleep and disgruntled about being woken up cause I had the brain function to find the ball he hid). It is right now 1201am and I want to do something...anything that doesn't involve being in my house. It drives me crazy. Sometimes (to the utter horror of my co-workers) I do take Jup for late night/early morning forays. Not often, usually we're back in the house by 1030-1130. But the night is usually too perfect and beautiful to waste.

One of my favorite memories of my place since I've moved in was when Brother was living here. He would many nights light up the fire place in the back yard and stay out there till bedtime. Once when it was still burning strong I collected a blanket, two flashlights and my book and stayed out there reading under the trees until it was just a glowing smoldering pile of coals. Never have I ever had such a serene time.

Tonight, however, I shall resist the temptation of the beauty outside my door. Instead I will stay in and do laundry. Between that and reading I'll have something to do to fill my time. WoW doesn't hold my attention tonight. Writing seems too involved. I must save my energy for tomorrow.

What momentous occasion could make me not want to work on my stories? Those wonderful dark holes that light up my life...

Training at work. Oh joy. This time I can't even play with real fire. Now we get fake fire. Screw it. I see flames while on duty a call to the WFD and my job is done. Take away my fun and see how productive I am. (Ok, rant over)